Wait a minute, that’s not my manta. My mantra is I can and I will. It’s about Meridith power and how much I rock and how I can do anything. Kelly Clarkson sings about me being Stronger! Katy Perry wants to hear me ROAR!
Except that I’ve been thinking about this full marathon I signed up for and rather than being excited for it and looking forward to the training, I’ve been coming up with the reasons of why I should NOT do it.
The cons are totally outweighing the pros in my mental list and that can’t be a good sign. I’m assuming that in the history of running, I can’t be the only one who ever felt this way. Back in March, I listed reasons why I planned to sign up for the full.
Well, now here are my reasons that I’ve decided that now is not the time.
#1 My foot has actually been feeling GOOD
Confused? Let me explain! I spent a good seven months in pain thanks to plantar fasciitis and this little beauty.
Seven months of wincing every time I got up in the morning out of bed. Seven months of hurting during and after every. Single. Run.
Slowly the pain faded away and I don’t think I even realized that it no longer hurt until a month of non-hurt. I was so accustomed to the hurt.
Now, I’m not hurting. And I don’t really want to mess that up.
Victoria and I have had this discussion more than once: you can’t fake a marathon. I mean, you probably could do it with minimal training (I’m sure that some people choose this option); I know I’d be downright miserable.
WHO WANTS TO BE MISERABLE? Not me! I like feeling good. Bring on the happy!
That’s not to say I haven’t been training. I have the Dumbo Double Dare at the end of this month and I’ve been having some great runs. Additionally I’m signed up for another 19.3 challenge in October (the Atlantic City Marathon series). Bumping up training runs to over 13 miles is where my issue lies.
Piggy-backing on the training point…
#3 I have other things that need to get done
My kiddos start school in September and both will be going full-day for the first time. In my delusional mind, I thought that this meant I’d have all the time in the world.
But uh, I already know that’s not going to be the case. Marathon training is an all or nothing type of thing. I don’t think I can give it my all at this point – there are things I need to do (PTO, laundry, food shopping, dog training) and there are things that I want to do (volunteer work, seeing my friends, spending weekends with my family). Which brings me to point 4.
#4 I don’t want to and you can’t make me. But what’s more is that I can’t make me.
To quote High School Musical, “You’ve gotta get’cha head in the game”. To quote myself, “No.”
Zac Efron, you’re adorable but even you can’t talk me into this.
Seriously though, I have the most supportive friends and family. They were all about me signing up in April. Conversely, as soon as I started expressing doubts and concerns, they were just as supportive in the other direction. Mentally, I’m just not at the full marathon level. I might be able to physically push through but I don’t want to.
#5 There’s a half marathon option!
Oh Philly, you can’t get rid of me that easily. You were my first road race, first spectating experience and my first volunteering experiences and I adore you. I have yet to run the half during the Philadelphia Marathon weekend so let’s not cut corners!
Who will I see on November 23rd?